I had a long long talk with one of my oldest friends last night, someone I went to high school with! Yeah, we had high schools back then, we just had to dodge the dinosaurs to get to them. It was a lot more exciting. Kids these days have it easy.
It was one of ‘those’ conversations… I told her I was transgender and transitioning. She was super surprised!
Well, to be fair, so was I, when I finally figured it out… You see, this isn’t really ‘new’, this is something I felt when I grew up – but back then, these kinds of things weren’t really easily done, or accepted as much, either. I was told I’d grow out of it, but really what I did was try to bury and forget everything in my childhood. I started hating being in pictures, I started changing everything. I started 4 years of drama in high school, even though I was terrified of people, just so that I could learn to act how everyone else wanted me to!
When people would bring up the past, I’d always change the subject – it got to the point where even family members talking about the past would anger me, because I never ever wanted to remember. I spent an awful long time being what other people wanted me to be, I don’t even know who I am anymore!
Anyway, it turned out really amazing – she’s even going to help me with some things, maybe try to make this clown look pretty some day, even! But the most important thing is how happy she was for me…
Love, Always,
SinSeer
